As tired as I felt when I went to bed, I have no idea why I am awake now. I am feeling rather anxious, and worse, I feel seriously confused. Something seems truly wrong with my brain right now. I cannot describe it well beyond anxiety and confusion… just this feeling of wrongness. I mainly wish I was simply sleeping now, not bouncing around feeling all weird.
It doesn't help that this is the ninth anniversary of Fujiko and I meeting. Being awake leaves me too open to struggling with being without her now. I miss her so much… words will never express the hole in my heart, in my life...
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